WHEN GINA WAS GONE I.....

I HAD SO MUCH TIME IN MY HANDS.. I WAS HOPING TO LOSE MYSELF IN SPACE.. BUT INSTEAD I FOUND MYSELF THINKING ABOUT ALOT OF STUFF..LIKE DESTINY,GOD, HUMANS, LOVE, PATIENCE...FEELINGS..… I STARTED WONDERING WHY DO WE NEED SO MANY FAIRYTALES AND STORIES TO SURVIVE.. WE NEED MIRACLES TO BELIEVE AND SEE IMAGES OF JESUS SUFFERING IN ORDER TO UNDERSTAND WHAT HE STOOD FOR..BUT DO WE? WE LIMIT EACH ACTION BECAUSE TOO MUCH IS SUFFOCATING AND NOT ENOUGH IS BORING, WE THINK WE KNOW WHAT WE WANT BUT THE TRUTH IS WE HAVE NO IDEA…. WE ARE ALWAYS SEARCHING FOR SOMEONE WHO GIVES A DAMMNN, WHEN WE ACTUALLY FIND THAT PERSON WE PUSH THEM AWAY BECAUSE IN YOUR MIND NOT ONLY WERE YOU LOOKING FOR SOMEONE WHO GAVE A DAMMN, BUT YOU ADDED A FACE.. A STYLE.. EVEN A STATUS.. WE FORGET WHAT IS REAL, WE DON’T KNOW WHAT IS WORTH FIGHTING FOR… SOME OF US WAIT FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN TO FEEL MORE ALIVE.. OTHERS LIE TO THEMSELVES TO UNDERSTAND..OTHERS DRINK AWAY THEIR FEELINGS….ME I FOUND MYSELF DOING IT ALL…I BEGAN TO THINK THAT MAYBE I AM MY ONLY FRIEND.. AND THAT IM MY OWN SHOULDER TO LEAN ON.. AND NO ONE IN THIS WORLD WILL EVER LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS YOU LOVE YOURSELF.. THIS WAY I WILL NEVER GET HURT.. AND NO ONE WILL EVER LET ME DOWN… SOMETIMES I WANT TO FEEL..BECAUSE FROM TIME TO TIME.. MY SOUL SLIPS FROM ME AND IM ONE WITH THIS RETARDED WORLD AND IS NOT A GOOD FEELING.. I LOOK AROUND AND IM DISGUSTED, SADDEN IS JUST SO DEPRESSING… WHERE IS LOVE? TRUE LOVE RAW LOVE FROM WITHIN… FROM THE SOURCE OF ALL LIVING THINGS… BUT HOW CAN THERE ACTUALLY BE REAL LOVE WHEN WE CANT EVEN BE HONEST WITH OURSELVES … THIS IS JUST 5 MIN IN VERES HEAD.. STAY TOONED FOR PREVIEWS OF 1MIN AND A HALF IN VERES HEAD…… I MISSED YOU SO MUCH,. GINA…IM SO HAPPY UR BACK!!!