behind the cards!!

all the sudden.. i feel sick.. a pain in my chest..burning my lungs like acid.. like a bullet penetrating my heart, i see it but i cant feel it.. because the pain in my chest is stronger.. i hope this is not regret, a feeling ive not yet experience.... NO IT CANT BE.. because everything i do.. i do it with PASSION.. he who can see this is a fool!! now the table turns and my cards seem a whole lot better from this angle..and again we hide behind our hand,, hoping luck is in our side.. and we win...what we think is worth... but is it???